I never knew you could just gave up on me

I can still remember the thought we first know each other, the happiness and laughterwe are not even aware that we are not even sleeping just to see each other's faces,  talking till our words faded, I felt wonderful, love, secure through all of your beautiful and sweet words, I was thinking before how lucky am I and feeling so joyful that i can't imagine that you've came into my life my soulmate my best friend we do have a lot of things in common, we are full of dreams, our goals are the same, how we love is equal, the connection is to strong, we are blessed as the way we feel to each other are very rare to find in these world.

As we always busy in our life to reach our goals to have a nice life together, and often we are tired and still we see each other, you knew i have insomnia sometimes i feel weak  and need to have rest and sleep you thought im ignoring you, you feel
that i  change, your seeing different behaviour to me that i never even think about the same thing to

you. The first time i have made you so mad, i saw how i really mean to you, you just gave up on me,
left me all alone from all the plans that we build.  I trusted you love me so much more as you are so
very sweet, caring and gentle, i never thought in a sudden you'll shout at me and just gave up
everything that we share. Is it the way you have love me?  is it the way you said before you never hurt
me?  why you are blaming me that i pushed you to the limits i deserved to be hurt and in pain, you said
its my choice, im the one who put my self in this kind of situation, im the one who ruined everything?
why because of a first conversation that we couldn't agree you decide so easily to throw away everything that we had.

You are so mad at me as you said the look in my eyes is shutting you down that it have a nasty
stare to you, I didn't say any thing bad at you that time, i didn't talk anymore as i was got scared the
way you are shouting at me and didn't expect that you will react that way.  You hated me so much for not listening and agreeing with that discussion, as you said i attacked you and i made you feel disrespectful, you didn't even consider what wonderful relationship we have, only one thing i realised
you cannot accept me at my worst and the next time we have a misunderstanding again you will absolutely just leave me behind tear my heart into pieces slowly and dont care at all.








and you misinterpret why i hanged up on you, the reason why..my tears is nearly to fall down while
looking at you treating me like that, i felt so small and ashamed with my self.  I dont want to show it to
you that im starting to feel the pain, the hurt inside my heart and the thoughts running in my head were you said to me all the beautiful words and the i love you's.

the most hurtful thing that i planted in my heart is that you promise me you wouldn't  hurt me... if i stayed and look at you on that manner i will burst in to tears,  i cried out loud without you knowing.

The way you explained its all my fault because im pushing you away not giving you enough time like

before, and your not feeling the fire of love i used to show you, ,from you im only human i get weak and continuously weaker and losing weight,  i know im sick i dont want to tell you, even im so hurt, and all what you said to me is not true, I consumed and i admit it all  that im wronged, its my fault why you're breaking up with me, i apologised to you,  you forget something how much burden i have in my heart, how much i am suffering in my life and still i need to pretend to be brave facing all my sorrows.

You knew i've been alone through my battle before you know me, my heart been stabbed and betrayed so many times why you need to really made me  feel more, you dragged me down to the extreme, you broke the faith that i hold on, i kept on holding on, you taught me how to love again, you made me believed that love is amazing.... i was scared before that i'll be shattered into  pieces and now it happened,  i knew it, i am a fool to believed to all your lies, i became blinded from the feeling of love that i thought that i can still see that theirs a hope to believe.

 You kept on accusing me im the one who changed,  why dont you observe your self and ask your own
 heart if its still same??  as you just leave me all at once and you decided to end it up easily, left me all by my self, crying and shattered my heart into pieces.